thinking back, way back when, I really start to realize how i’ve grown and matured until now. I start to think deeper into this thought. besides the whole image thing, my character has changed dramatically. I used to be shy and reserved, now I’m friendly and outgoing. now, I think deeper into that thought. I think of those 2 years and 6 months i’ve had with her. I think of how it is true of what they say, “you don’t really see the value of something until you lose it.” again, I look deeper.. i’ve only grown and matured so much because she taught me so much. I learned that as a person, you not only need to please yourself with happiness but with others as well. I look more deeply into this.. I scarred my own life. hurting myself knowing that I hurt her. knowing that I can’t take it all back. knowing that it’s memories are embedded in my mind. these thoughts can run on forever but it’s so overwhelming for me to handle it. I cry, yes a guy who crys. I cry because I really love her.